Bad Morning Spell
Here I go again...I am having those spells again. I woke up so early today thinking about you-know-who and I'm just crying so much. So many things I don't understand! Why do I do that? I'm kinda scared too without Al. I was dependent on him for 7 years. Now, I get confused on what to do with my life sometimes.
Yesterday, Jeff was here with his new wife, showing my sister-in-law their wedding and honeymoon video and pics. I guess that triggered some memories on my part. I feel sad that I never had a kid with Al (and I still wonder why up to this day). I also miss the times when we went places and spent happy times together.