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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Days of Shock and Sadness

Wow, I haven't blogged for a long time, and there's good reason for that. I know I blogged about my pregnancy because I am sooo excited (we've been trying for 10 years) but then I had a miscarriage three weeks ago. Very sad news, I know. They found out that the baby didn't have a heartbeat and that it stopped growing on the 9th week (and I found out when I had my OB appointment when I thought I was on my 12th week). Sux.

Not sure what's happening to my family. Last year around summertime, my sis-in-law also had a miscarriage, then me. Then my cousin had premature twins on her 5th month and the hospital said they wouldn't survive which they didn't. Then I just found out today that my cousin had a miscarriage too few weeks ago and this is her third miscarriage (she does have a baby already but they've been trying for another one). I dunno what's going on, but we'll keep on trying. The sucky part was that I had to go through a D&C procedure that hurt like crap, like having the worst menstrual cramps ever. And then on top of that, I had a fever and a cough (must've been an infection). But just in case I do have an infection, they gave me two types of anti-biotics to take. I feel soo drugged, hehe. Anyhoo, I'm okay now, except of this backache that's been buggin' me for months (even before the procedure). Scary!

A friend of mine said, why is it that women who don't want kids have kids, and those that want them don't get pregnant? I will never take pregnancy for granted ever again!


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